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i cant do this anymore i'm pretending that i'm fine when the smallest thing can make me cry not that you've ever seen it i mean who notices the wierd girl in the corner but then i guess you never knew there was a corner or a girl who just needed someone to take her far way from this life for an hour at a time not even an hour just a minute or a second but no one spared me a glance or noticed when there wasn't a girl in the corner but you all noticed the drops of blood leading out the door how strange you notice the little things but ignore the person who made them i wish you could understand but you dont you dont understand why

no body will ever miss you because there was no one to notice that you were gone whilest you hid away from the world with friends who only existed in stories you dream of a place just like their worlds a place where your dreams become a reality people talk to you miss you when your gone and even love you the place that doesnt exist and as you realise this you strart to write the word no the first time it doesnt hurt it was pencil the second time it doesnt hurt it was pen the third time it doesnt hurt it was a razor as the no becomes more more flowing it stares at you taunting you with its knowledge you start to notice

take me by the hand lead me down the stairs past the window and out the door i cant believe i finally left the place that i once existed half way to our destination your hand starts slipping you let me go now im falling onto the grass with a skinned knee wondering why i ever let you take me crying over more then the spilt blood i realise you were all just a dream nothing real nothing sacred just a figment of my sadistic imagination staring at the scars that criss cross across my wrist i realise that its my only escape i cant turn back now i have to punish my self for concocting a dream that there was someone who thoug